01/01/2014 § 9 Comments
in the direction of your dreams
This time last year, 2013, for the first time in my life I adopted a motto for the year. So aptly did I feel inspired by these words of Henry David Thoreau, that I even embroidered and framed them, with the addition of a little duck which made me smile. The thought of Flora striking out in the pond, in the direction of her dreams which undoubtedly would include gobbling up a fat slug or juicy snail, always brought me back to the simplicity of life and the directness of creatures in the way that they exist.
This time last year, I had dreams. I was happy at home and with my family, but felt stressed and uncomfortable in work. Like most people, I was doing ‘too much’ and I needed an escape plan. By the turn of 2012 into 2013, I had a plan but no idea quite how to execute it. I spent many hours in my sewing studio, number crunching on my calculator – could we afford to live comfortably if I didn’t work? My dream was to leave work, chill out and do some sewing.
Events were stressful, Himself wasn’t too good and in March it resulted in me having a bit of a ‘meltdown’. Nothing ever so dramatic or requiring medication or anything – I was simply told by my GP to stop, sit down, look after Himself while he recovered from surgery and take life a bit easy.
I never returned to the classroom. We made a decision at Easter time last year, that I would leave work. We’d manage – and we have! It took me a long time to ‘recover’. In March and April I did stop, I sat down a lot, walked the collies a lot, did some hand-sewing and one day when we jaunted to a local market town, I bought some wool and picked up my crochet hook again. I recovered stitch by stitch, by needle and hook whilst Himself got stronger and life got easier.
Never have I enjoyed an Autumn and Winter as much as last year. I had no idea that my job was causing me such stress, I loved teaching. I kept running around in that hamster wheel of term times, classes, parents evenings, open days, exam revision, analysing results, planning for next lesson, week, term, year – until I stepped off that day in March and felt giddy with joy!
‘Go confidently in the direction of your dreams’ was a very fitting motto for my 2013. My dream was to leave work, chill out and do some sewing – I’ve left, I’m feeling chilled and have done LOTS of sewing!
So, what about this new year – 2014? Shall I keep paddling along like Flora, or should I have a new motto? These are almost there …
“Live the life you have imagined” – the end of the ‘Go confidently’ quotation by Henry David Thoreau
“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams” – Eleanor Roosevelt
“Creativity is just connecting things. When you ask creative people how they did something, they feel a little guilty because they didn’t really do it, they just saw something. It seemed obvious to them after a while” – Steve Jobs
But I don’t ‘feel’ they’re quite right for me for 2014. I’m going to have to go with my instinct, and just like when I name a quilt I’ll make up my own. My 2014 motto is …
“Living Patchwork Dreams”
Life is like a patchwork, all the pieces come together and the most interesting patchworks have brights and subtles working together in harmony to create something quite different from the individual patches – the whole is so much bigger than the sum of the parts – like life. The quilting stitches bind the layers together and the whole thing is designed to satisfy those basic needs of warmth and security, keeping us warm whilst we sleep and dream.
I dream of creating lots of patchwork quilts in 2014 and drifting off to sleep every night, dreaming in colour about what I’ll be sewing tomorrow.
Happy New Year – live your dreams.